This is good

I found this, and it relates so much to my life right now. Thought i'd sare the encouragement with you. More is to come...




If your life was like a painting,the strokes that are being added to the canvas today may not make much sense when viewed alone. However, God doesn't waste any strokes...for He sees the final picture...You may think the color being used today is too gray...[but] the time will come when you will see that the meaning of the painting would be weakened if the gray strokes were not included in the exact places they appear.~anonymous




gray in one spot on a painting could look like a blob, whereas in a carefully placed spot, it adds depth and sets off something vitally important to the point of the painting. this "gray" is being carefully stroked into the exact place it needs to be, so that it brings your future - the very masterpiece of your life - to light.




because i'm a nerd and like to say things like "in conclusion" this is where i'll end. in conclusion, i'm in a gray spot. and yes i started a new journal. and yes i changed my blog. again. but i'm learning to embrace this gray spot for all it's worth, and see the beauty in every tiny curve and bend in it's stroke

Thinking

Today, I spent a lot of time thinking...

and when I get really thinking, I end up finding how far I've strayed from Christ.

Today has been an emotional day. 

Quote of the Weekend:

Faith is living according to His truth and His truth alone despite circumstances, emotions, or cultural trends.

This weekend I've been struggling. Not just with lack of sleep, but with emotionally. I've been trying to get to a point where I don't miss Michael and Zack as much, but that point just hasn't come. I'm pretty sure whoever came up with the saying, Time heals, was wrong. Time doesn't heal, Jesus does. I'm praying that my heart will be healed, that I will remember to praise God during this storm. I have a few song lyrics that have been playing in my head this week.

Praise You in this Storm:

I barely hear You whisper through the rain,

"I'm with you"

and as Your mercy falls

I raise my hands and praise

the God who gives and takes away.

And I'll praise you in this storm

and I will lift my hands

for You are who You are

no matter where I am

and every tear I've cried

You hold in your hand

You never left my side

and though my heart is torn

I will praise You in this storm

Who You'd Be Today

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.

I wear the pain like a heavy coat.

I feel you everywhere I go.

I see your smile, I see your face,

I hear you laughin' in the rain.

I still can't believe you're gone.

It ain't fair: you died too young,

Like the story that had just begun,

But death tore the pages all away.

God knows how I miss you,

All the junk that I've been through,

Just knowin' no-one could take your place.

An' sometimes I wonder,

Who'd you be today?

I'm Not Alright

I’m not alright

I’m broken inside, broken inside

And all I go through

It leads me to you, it leads me to you

Burn away the pride

Bring me to my weakness

Until everything I hide behind is gone

And when I’m open wide

With nothing left to cling to

Only you are there to lead me on

Cause honestly, I’m not that strong

I'm praying that God will give me a peace that can only come from him. A peace that will surround me completely and fully. I'm praying that will be able to live according to His truth and His truth alone despite circumstances and emotions.

Thank you Jesus for everything you have done for me. thank you for allowing me to have an amazing group of believers that you use to always lift me up. Thank you for being my constent, and not giving up on me...Ever.

I can only find myself in you.

In your mighty, holy, all powerful name I pray,

Amen.

Thanks for Reading,

Callie

Listening to: Who You'd Be Today.