Death and Life

I'm not sure where to start this post.

My mind is racing in 100 different directions.

I'm struggling with how people can choose to take their own life, but others are fighting to keep theirs and loose....

Today, Keke Fuller went to be with Jesus in Heaven. After a 40+ day fight for her life...Jesus called her home. We prayed that Jesus would heal her completely...and He did. Just not the way we wanted...but She is healed, and whole, and in the presence of our perfect father in heaven.

Today I cried. I cried for a family that lost their sweet smiling 6 year old. I cried for all the pain that this family is having to go through, and will continue to as they learn how to go on with this new way of life... I cried for all the people who will never get to meet this sweet little girl.

But one think I don't cry about, is that  Keke is in heaven with Jesus. She is sitting at his feet. I'm not crying for all the people who have returned to praying because of this little girl.

Today, I thought a lot about Zack.

About his life...About his death... About everything that happened during that dash that in on his tombstone... I wonder what he was thinking, doing, dreaming....

I miss my friend so much.

I struggle with the idea that he took his life....and keke had to fight for hers... and loose.


God is teaching me a lot through this.

He has taught me that There will always be a reason why you meet people. Either you need them to change your life or you are the one that will change theirs.

I think Zack was put in my life for me to help change his life...but for him to change mine. Keke was put in my path for her to change my life.... Both of them taught me the value of life, and how it can end so quickly. How to live life to the fullest because we don't know how long we have. For Keke, she only had 6 years, for Zack, 18....I don't know how long I will have, but I know I must live life to the fullest.

Tonight, Pray for the Fuller Family.. Pray for Keke's parents, siblings, and her twin brother.


Tonight, think about your life. the limited time you have here on earth. and the time that you have to make a difference.

Tonight, hug your family. Appreciate the time you had with them today, and don't take for granted the time you have tomorrow...Because you never know when your last day will be.


In Christ's Love,


Callie


Listening to: Why by Rascal Flats

Able

This post is my attempt to share the amazing, speechless things the Lord is doing in my life right now.

ABLE. This word has been spoken to me more times in the past week than I think I have ever heard it in my life!

Able by NeedToBreathe- Carry round the secrets only heaven knows,Crawl into our darkened rooms where only victims go.Though I feel I'm strong enough to carry all this load, I'm not able on my own...

God is Able-Hillsong- Lifted up, He defeated the grave,Raised to life,Our God is able.In His name We overcome,For the Lord Our God is able

God is Great, God is Able

I am so thankful my God is Able! He can can carry what I am not able to carry, he will never leave us. He is faithful! Just. Almighty. Daddy. All-knowing. Abba Father. My savior. Redeemer. Friend.

God is overwhelming me with his Love, Mercy, and Grace. Right now, I would probably consider my emotional level to be at one of it's weakest points ever, Yet my God is ableto provide the healing, support, love, and care I need.

My father is Able! I know he is with me, every step of the way. I know his love has lit the way. I know 100% that I am exactly where I am suppose to be right now. I have found a group of honest, authentic Christians who just want to love Jesus, and share that Overwhelmingly wonderful news with everyone they come in contact with! I am thankful that even in the midst of everything going on, God is putting people, churches, groups in my life and my relationship with him has never grown more, and for that, I am thankful!

I may not be able on my own, but I sure do serve a faithful God who is!

Until next time,

Callie

Listening to: God is Able by Hillsong

This is good

I found this, and it relates so much to my life right now. Thought i'd sare the encouragement with you. More is to come...




If your life was like a painting,the strokes that are being added to the canvas today may not make much sense when viewed alone. However, God doesn't waste any strokes...for He sees the final picture...You may think the color being used today is too gray...[but] the time will come when you will see that the meaning of the painting would be weakened if the gray strokes were not included in the exact places they appear.~anonymous




gray in one spot on a painting could look like a blob, whereas in a carefully placed spot, it adds depth and sets off something vitally important to the point of the painting. this "gray" is being carefully stroked into the exact place it needs to be, so that it brings your future - the very masterpiece of your life - to light.




because i'm a nerd and like to say things like "in conclusion" this is where i'll end. in conclusion, i'm in a gray spot. and yes i started a new journal. and yes i changed my blog. again. but i'm learning to embrace this gray spot for all it's worth, and see the beauty in every tiny curve and bend in it's stroke

Thinking

Today, I spent a lot of time thinking...

and when I get really thinking, I end up finding how far I've strayed from Christ.

Today has been an emotional day. 

Quote of the Weekend:

Faith is living according to His truth and His truth alone despite circumstances, emotions, or cultural trends.

This weekend I've been struggling. Not just with lack of sleep, but with emotionally. I've been trying to get to a point where I don't miss Michael and Zack as much, but that point just hasn't come. I'm pretty sure whoever came up with the saying, Time heals, was wrong. Time doesn't heal, Jesus does. I'm praying that my heart will be healed, that I will remember to praise God during this storm. I have a few song lyrics that have been playing in my head this week.

Praise You in this Storm:

I barely hear You whisper through the rain,

"I'm with you"

and as Your mercy falls

I raise my hands and praise

the God who gives and takes away.

And I'll praise you in this storm

and I will lift my hands

for You are who You are

no matter where I am

and every tear I've cried

You hold in your hand

You never left my side

and though my heart is torn

I will praise You in this storm

Who You'd Be Today

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.

I wear the pain like a heavy coat.

I feel you everywhere I go.

I see your smile, I see your face,

I hear you laughin' in the rain.

I still can't believe you're gone.

It ain't fair: you died too young,

Like the story that had just begun,

But death tore the pages all away.

God knows how I miss you,

All the junk that I've been through,

Just knowin' no-one could take your place.

An' sometimes I wonder,

Who'd you be today?

I'm Not Alright

I’m not alright

I’m broken inside, broken inside

And all I go through

It leads me to you, it leads me to you

Burn away the pride

Bring me to my weakness

Until everything I hide behind is gone

And when I’m open wide

With nothing left to cling to

Only you are there to lead me on

Cause honestly, I’m not that strong

I'm praying that God will give me a peace that can only come from him. A peace that will surround me completely and fully. I'm praying that will be able to live according to His truth and His truth alone despite circumstances and emotions.

Thank you Jesus for everything you have done for me. thank you for allowing me to have an amazing group of believers that you use to always lift me up. Thank you for being my constent, and not giving up on me...Ever.

I can only find myself in you.

In your mighty, holy, all powerful name I pray,

Amen.

Thanks for Reading,

Callie

Listening to: Who You'd Be Today.